Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Am I a non-confirmist -- I have a weird feeling may be yes!

The naive me -- young and enthusiastic looked at everything and everyone -- through my rose colored glasses of naivete. World had nice people just like me... trustworthy, honest, sincere, and curious. My rose colored glasses got shattered many a times. I continued to believe in the goodness and still do -- just that I am more cautious. I have also realized I am a non-conformist, followed an less taken road, derided for my choices, but nonetheless I believe in my choices.

The complexities in the world don't make sense to me -- I am simple and like simplicity -- in thought and expression. I found that it's not the norm -- people like to complicate, fuzzier the better, don't know why is that?

I made unconventional choices in schools. I left a famous public boarding school as I felt I was not being valued there. People tried to sweet-talk me to re-consider but I stuck to my decision. This is when I was 12. I chose to matriculate from a simple Central School 36 Kms from my then-home at Khairi, district Chamba of Himachal Pradesh. and far exceeded everyone's expectations.

I made unconventional choices throughout my education and work career. Always followed my heart and when I felt that I was not enjoying the experience, I questioned my assumptions, spoke to my fears, and if things still made no sense I let them go.

Money comes and goes. Careers come and go. Things happen, I learn the lessons and then I forget, just continuing on my journey, don't know what is my destination but I believe the journey is my destination.